Immediately post the May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat, Kosmic Bhagwad Gita sessions commenced. All FiTs formed an internal what’s app group chat for this purpose and posted our questions there which were collated by me. Reader’s kindly go through the range of questions that FiTs came up with:
Since the discourses covered a range of topics like Akshar, Akshar swaroop, Brahmroop, Paramatma, Parabrahm and many more Sanskrit terms that most FiTs were unfamiliar with, Sree Maa Shri Ji encouraged all of us to explore Shrimad Bhagwad Gita (Bhagwan Shree Krishna’s Teachings to Arjun) as those were going to be the base of all future Teachings and discourses by Sree Maa.
All FiTs looked forward to the Q and A with Sree Maa and i shared the audio recordings of these sessions with all FiTs. Dallia has sat with me in Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Te Atatu house during some of these Kosmic Bhagwad Gita sessions and Jeeya for some sessions. Sree Maa always had at least 2 FiTs and never encouraged one-on-one sessions to completely not give any kind of fodder to the ego to feel special. Such is the kind of care extended by our beloved Guru who knows how the doer can subtly creep back in and has taken full responsibility of nurturing the Akarmi deh 🙏
Nandini had already been listening to Bhagwad Gita discourses by BK Usha and Sree Maa asked her to share the links with everyone. Since the characters were unknown to most FiTs, Sree Maa was most gracious to research and recommend links of You Tube videos on synopsis of characters of Mahabharata with English subtitles that would be easy to follow by FiTs hailing from different countries and cultures. We all did our own research from the comforts of our own homes🙏😇
Shrimad Bhagavad Gita- Drama (7 hours)
Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50UvBKzWpD4
Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1oXR-QpIr0
Part 3: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6o8hjb__srY
BK Usha’s explanation on the secrets of Bhagavad Gita (in English) – (9 Hours)
Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A57RWl7L1ak
Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0kfk7s1sQjI
Part 3: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bNmH0JrNm1I
Part 4: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1a2rFF6ZS6I
Part 5: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ou_VfaU-RTE
Part 6: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LqxSWkUdTrk
Sree Maa Shri Ji had mentioned in 2012, also in one of the FiT calls in 2014 and again revealed over one of the dinners in the May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat about the final goal of having a place/space where the non-frequency, formless form that can’t be seen but only felt energetically was to be installed and anchored. People only had to walk into the space to have self-realization about their dark/shadow/small selves and the 3D/4D dense obsolete grids would fall off without having to go through peeling the onion layer by layer.
What a fantastic ultimate goal that made sense after the Akarmi deh and Samdarshi initiations and that with Sree Maa Shri Ji, something so spectacular and unbelievable to the mind was absolutely possible!🙏 A few of us floated the idea of an Ashram trial Project for this purpose and to take it as a testing ground if we were capable of running an Ashram in the future.
Around this time, Jeeya took on the role of Sree Maa’s PA.
My inner knowingness of something major emerging in the May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat turned out to be absolutely true with the birthing of Niranjana, the akarmi deh and layers of my old self dying and really stepping back. Thank goodness, i listened to my inner calling and allowed the process to unfold instead of running to a doctor to take anti-depression pill for quick relief and slow/halt the process. The entire 10 days of the May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat had been phenomenal with non-stop Grace consistently showered by Sree Maa Shri Ji 🙏 Utter bliss and lightness replaced the low feelings that i had experienced earlier💞
Sada Apki AbhAri rahoongi Sree Maa Shri Ji__/\o___/\o___/\o_
The new me that hadn’t settled in Transcendence finally emerged in the Akarmi deh initiation😍This initiation was the culmination of what i had been experiencing since the start of 2015. My old self completely took a back seat and Niranjana, the akarmi fully took birth with the Akarmi deh initiation. This was a colossal gift from Sree Maa Shri Ji where effortlessly the akarmi came forward. Had an inner knowingness that what required consistent awareness and effort earlier was now going to be the way of life.
After the initiation, i felt revived and fully ready to accept the new name that i had given consent for before the Retreat. Sree Maa had written down all the names on the board and we all tried guessing our own names. i related with quite a few surprisingly and loved my new name chosen by Sree Maa. Niranjana means pure and untainted, without any false hood🙏 All the names were attributes of the non-doer. Every time we took each others’ akarmi names, we were reminding ourselves of the unchanging attributes of the akarmi. For instance, Archita means one who has surrendered to God. Every time i called her by that name, i was reminding myself that the akarmi is always surrendered to God. Every time i called Mala, it reminded that all akarmis are connected with one another with the common string Sree Maa Shri Ji and together we all resembled a beautiful garland spreading the fragrance of love, the QVSWPP. How absolutely beautiful!💖 atyant AbhAr Sree Maa Shri Ji 🙏
Embodying the akarmi was ultimate for me. i felt i had reached the pinnacle of what would have taken me eons to achieve. Sree Maa Shri Ji, being the ultimate embodiment of love and grace, showered yet another blessing of Samdarshi, the cherry on the cake.
Samdarshi loosely means ‘like God’ With this initiation we were given the blessing to not look at the Absolute from the outside but carry IT within us. This was SreeMaaShriJi honoring us. Sree Maa introduced the concept of Nar and Narayan where Nar carries an aspect of Narayan. In practical life, with this beautiful initiation, none of us would receive any mirrors from outside but Sree Maa Shri Ji and fellow FiTs would be our only mirrors. No more lessons would be taught by anyone. Sree Maa Shri Ji would teach the last few remaining lessons of the jivatma (incarnational soul) gently and with love🙏🙏🙏 atyant AbhAr Sree Maa Shri Ji for such ultimate Grace.
As i look back and reflect, one of my biggest mistakes and contribution towards the failure of FiT programme, enabling the narcissists and victimizing Sree Maa Shri Ji was the faulty application and understanding of the Samdarshi initiation. Will write about my reflections on this in detail soon.