Tête-à-tête

What a prolific journey it has been with Kosmic Fusion with my dear Kalyan Mitras under the Guidance of SreeMaa-Shreeji, our beloved mentor! Ekta flew miles to interview us early this year, to understand about our journeys in the FiT Programme and how beautifully Sree Maa Shri Ji helped us shift our inner states of being and progress towards our Brahmroop. 

If the Gift of Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) Graced by beloved Sree Maa Shri Ji under the umbrella of Kosmic Fusion was a sports car, then being under the wings of SreeMaa-Shreeji in the FiT programme was the super fuel needed to race the sports car on the super sonic short cut back Home. We made many blunders on the journey due to our own weaknesses and pathetic driving skills, the impacts of which were borne by Sree Maa Shri Ji and Kosmic Fusion, but not once has the QVSWPP let us down and SreeMaa-Shreeji, like a mother who does not leave the infant alone until it starts to walk, never left our hands until we could at least take on the reigns as faculty. We sadly learnt our lessons at the expense of Sree Maa Shri Ji but continue to hone our skills with Absolute Truth and QVSWPP shared by SreeMaa-Shreeji to reach the ultimate goal of attaining Brahmroop and until then are very happy serving Kosmic Fusion as akarmi. 

Sada Apki Abhaari SreeMaa-Shreeji for ensuring that at least some of us, despite many trials and tribulations, who joined the mission of Kosmic Fusion with integrity, honesty and authenticity have been given the chance to offer seva.

We welcome everyone to watch our interviews to understand the Grace of QVSWPP, the significance of Kosmic Fusion, school of Absolute Truth and the shifts experienced in the Presence of SreeMaa-Shreeji during the FiT programme via our personal journeys!

 

Archita

 

Jeeya

 

Mala

 

Ekta

 

Hanuman

My Response 1 : Former volunteers have described being struck, spat…?

My response to the ridiculous and derogatory questions of the journalists was one long email which i have published in 4 parts in my blog for ease in reading. 

Part 1

Jai Shree Swaminarayan_/\_

prAnAAm Sree Maa Shri Ji_/\_

Shri Ji, kindly find all my answers to the questions/claims raised by the journalist with complete honesty, integrity and authenticity, the 3 core values always emphasized and abided by Sree Maa Shri Ji and followed by me as a FIT (facilitator in training) who is a sincere seeker on the Spiritual path and likes to be mentored by Souls who lead by example_/\_

Q) Former volunteers have described being struck, spat on or had their hair pulled during “reflection” sessions? 

Ans: i have been a volunteer since 2012, am still a volunteer and have NOT been touched by anyone in Kosmic Fusion at any phase of any Training offered by Sree Maa Shri Ji. i have honored the ethics of a volunteer, practitioner and integrity of a FIT where i have willingly and honestly looked at the shades of my small self.

The only time touching was permitted was when volunteers and practitioners did swap healing sessions with one another or with people who approached to receive a Multi-dimensional holographic healing session with QVSWPP from 2012 to mid 2016. i clearly recall telling Sree Maa Shri Ji that i feel uncomfortable giving sessions to men as it involved touching recipients’ at chakra assemblage points and instead hover my hand in the auric field for them. Sree Maa Shri Ji had said it was perfectly fine as the Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP) is supremely intelligent and will do what needs to be done for the recipient at a level he is ready. 

Even touching the recipient was made redundant while sharing the most Benevolent Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse from mid 2016 for complete energy hygiene of the recipient and the sharer, and most importantly ruling out the smallest fodder to the healer’s ego. When such high levels of ethics are being taught and practiced, what is the base for questions of being struck or hair being pulled?

As for being spat on, i only recall one incident where i sat next to Sree Maa Shri Ji at the 2015 Kawai Pura retreat on the dining table and a drop of saliva from Sree Maa Shri Ji’s mouth fell on me while answering a question i asked about tamas, rajas, satva. Sree Maa Shri Ji had apologized to me when i should have been the one apologizing for asking questions while Sree Maa Shri Ji was having lunch, as if the workshop hours weren’t enough. Since i don’t know the journalist as a person or his background, may i request ShriJi to kindly ask the journalist if he considers that being spat on? 

Oh wait! the descriptions are specific to “reflection” sessions. Almost all of my “reflection” sessions have been done on my own in the company of Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse (QVSWPP), my 24 by 7 friend, in the privacy of my room by my self.

Beware of Trash in spiritual circles

Studying the Family and Systems Constellations Training module and practice sessions activated the chitt and mann again. It was a good testing ground for neutrality. Despite the very short experience of Sampoorna Samarpan (Total Surrender) and the most benevolent QVSWPP by my side 24 by 7, the antahkaran started playing up every now and then again. i decided to tackle it once and for all when one of my colleagues who has been with Osho for over 2 decades messaged out of the blue about a family constellation workshop with someone called Darshan. Sree Maa had told us many times from the onset that the small self and the psychological make up is our own responsibility and that Sree Maa takes full responsibility only for the Akarmi (non-doer) and Atma. Plus i was studying Systemic Constellations myself, i decided to go for it.

It was the worst decision and remains one of the most rubbish and sickening experiences of my life till date. The first constellation went well. When i went for the second constellation, the facilitator gave stupid advises that i never asked for as i really had gone for a constellation and not some cognitive therapy or a C grade advisory session. What was most surprising was that she herself had said at the start of the day that “you are fed up of receiving advises” and then stupidly goes ahead and gives it herself at the end of the day😖. Instead of a constellation to resolve the energetic block for the feeling of being stuck with money and career, the facilitator gave ridiculous advises that i should study Ayurveda or become a high class slut. Absolutely shocking!

She never did a constellation and just kept barking nonsense without giving me a chance to speak. She went to the extent of asking the participants to say to me “tell her, she is cold and miserable” and like poodles without brains, they said it also of which 2 had never met me before. Only one person who also i met for the first time in that group disagreed with her and voiced it. Till date i thank her for the discernment she kept and not falling low like others as otherwise, i would have definitely hit depression thinking that something is really wrong with me if 5 people in a spiritual healing group were to say so. After a while, she told me to just get off the chair and go with a closing statement that there is a limit to giving. Really!!! i just wondered what was she giving.

i have never come back feeling so abused and harassed as i did from that workshop not only at the hands of the facilitator but the participants too and i take fully responsibility for putting myself through it. Since manan and chintan has always been a part of my life, i really gave thought to what had transpired. Was i really cold and miserable? May be there was a part in me that i was unaware of? i felt zero resonance to it.

i called up my colleague and told her that Darshan had really misbehaved and that she had no business giving such ridiculous advises, she said that she will tell Darshan to speak properly and then goes ahead to tell me of an incident about some friend of hers that was a high class escort and how she ended up getting married to one of her clients!!! i could not believe what i had just heard!!!

For the first time i realized that a lot of people are on the spiritual path but it doesn’t necessarily mean they are evolved or enlightened or keep conscience. i got a full dose of spiritual glamour without any essence and massive healer’s ego.

i really contemplated what was my learning curve out of the unpleasant experience. At the end of the day, this experience had manifested and i don’t deny i sat and cried for what i had put myself through at the hands of a healer. The only answer i could find was ‘DISCERNMENT’.

Anyway, the reason i mention this incident is that within a month, like a mother who knows the weakness and vulnerability of her child and what it is going through even when it doesn’t voice it’s feelings, Sree Maa yet again gave a colossal gift, the gift of sharanagati_/\__/\__/\_

Surrender is the key!

i had already decided not to practice hypnotherapy anymore and unnecessarily activate chitt and manas, my own or of clients but the nature (swabhav) of my doer has always been to keep learning new things. i had participated in a few family constellations workshops in 2013/14, had found them very interesting which gave a different dimension to healing and so decided to study the modality when i came to know in June 2015 that a Family Constellations training workshop (3 levels spread over a couple of months) was being organised in Mumbai. The first module was within 25 days. i did not have leave on the requisite days and my flying schedule had already been released, so my only option was to swap flights and travel to Mumbai on days off. i must have sent out at least 200 swaps and messaged colleagues to kindly accept the swap but all got rejected. 3 days before the commencement of the workshop, the last swap got rejected and there was no way i could have made it for the training. i finally surrendered and fully accepted that this was not manifesting. There was no disappointment or unpleasant feelings, just an acceptance that QVSWPP, Sree Maa Shri Ji know what’s best for me, an understanding and knowingness that had come from over 4 years of experience.

2 days later, i woke up to a message from a colleague saying that she had seen my advertisement for the days off that i wanted and was happy to swap but hadn’t checked if the swap was valid. i had only half an hour to check if the swap was valid and for my colleague to accept as the legality for rostering system is that all swaps will expire 24 hours before flight departure time. Unbelievably, the swap was valid and within the next couple of hours, i found myself on a flight to Mumbai to attend the Family and Systemic Constellation training.

i wondered how everything had manifested and what was my learning out of it. i had tried everything possible to get days off, but nothing manifested. i had embodied the akarmi and didn’t have any expectation of the result but what surprised me was that i did not experience even a twinge of disappointment or complaint in my thoughts and inner dialogue. This was new and 2 days later everything had fallen into place. Amazing😍. This state was somewhat similar to the state of surrender i had experienced in Nov 2011 where i had uttered a prayer to Sri Sri asking him to send into my life that’s best for me but this time, i did not even utter a prayer to Sree Maa. i was in total acceptance. For the first time i had an experience of true surrender where i didn’t ask for anything even in the form of a prayer and operated from utmost Trust naturally🙏🙇

Little was i aware at the time that the course content of May-June 2016 Taupo Retreat would revolve around Total Surrender (sampoorna samarpan) of which i had experienced a very small taster🙏🙇

Akarmi v/s Antahkaran

i felt elated after the prolific May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat and i was finding it difficult hiding the joy i was feeling from within. Listening to devotional songs took me in a different zone of bliss altogether which had never happened before. Earlier, i listened to bhajans at loud volume to cut out mental noise and to allow the vibration of the chant bring energetic shifts. For the first time, i experienced how people would feel ecstatic by visiting temples in ancient Bharat and singing devotional songs. i could feel it sitting at home or in my hotel room 🙇💕.

i started researching the net for bhajans and sent them to Sree Maa if they were suitable to be circulated amongst the FiTs. Sree Maa selected a few to be circulated that were easy to sing, if not comprehend and left the tough Sanskrit ones out. i was enthralled at how much Sree Maa cared for everyone and truly was an exceptional mentor who had literally given birth to the akarmi in all of us and had been nurturing it like a mother🙏i felt immense gratitude and respect for Sree Maa and Shri Ji and based on all feedbacks everyone had given during and after the Retreat, even Dallia to some extent, i assumed everyone felt the same and experienced similar shifts if not paramount ones that i did. This assumption and blindly believing everyone for what they said costed me and my most dear Sree Maa and Shri Ji dearly in 2016/2017.

Embodying the non-doer fully was really beautiful to which the Kosmic Bhagwad Gita was sheer indulgence. The discourses on Shrimad Bhagwad Geeta didn’t make as much sense as they did after the retreat. The shift was so phenomenal that it marked the cessation of hypnotherapy clients for me. i couldn’t bear to listen to the mental and emotional woes of clients that i knew were just the density of the Sukshm sharir (subtle bodies) and the True Soul/Atma is so pure, totally devoid of the slush of the Antahkaran. i felt i would be a cheat if i continued with the sessions and did not introduce people to the treasure i had found, QVSWPP, the gift of Grace by beloved Sree Maa and Shri Ji_/\_

After a while, 4 antahkarans namely mann (mind), buddhi (intellect), chitt (emotive mind), ahankar (ego) started acting up again. It was shocking to realize that despite the magnanimous gifts and blessings from Sree Maa to embody the akarmi, anatahkaran still worked like a hard core programme that needed constant monitoring and cleansing to avoid dust and slush settling as thoughts and emotions. What was a relief and quite astounding though was that with just a little effort of tuning-in with QVSWPP, akarmi took the reigns back in no time and told it off that “sorry, you are not in control anymore.” i was very aware of the Self witnessing the antahkaran and not get embroiled in its drama.

 

Anant and Sampoorna Dhyaan

Sree Maa Shri Ji took all of us a step forward by introducing us to Anant dhyaan and Sampoorna dhyaan. Literal translation of anant dhyaan is meditational state that is eternal, without any end and Sampoorna dhyaan is complete meditation on the formless form. We all paired up in pairs of two and looked at the partner to see if we could see Sree Maa Shri Ji in him/her. We could keep our eyes open or close them after some time. We kept our hands folded at the heart area in a namaste to honour the aspect of the Absolute in the other. This was an advanced technique to really merge all of us together and to be able to see Sree Maa Shri Ji, the common link that brought all of us together, in each of us and not the personality that we carried. i was able to see Sree Maa Shri Ji’s photo in no time when i looked at my partner Jwala and experienced stithi pragnya in Sampoorna dhyaan. i felt so steady. This was the first time i had experienced it to this degree.

When we all shared our experiences, no one had seen only Sree Maa or only Shri Ji. We had seen them together as one. This was a validation to me that Sree Maa and Shri Ji were in two bodies but One at the level of the atma and this oneness was in us too. Sree Maa Shri Ji had been displaying this to us symbolically from the start but i failed to realize that until this exercise was done. Sree Maa Shri Ji had then revealed to us that this kind of fusion was to be released to the world only in 2022 but was shown to us earlier, such was the level of trust and compassion Sree Maa Shri Ji kept on us🙏🙏🙏

Sree Maa Shri Ji always taught us that we are nobody to judge and that the potential of the Absolute is in everyone. They had brought me to many self-realizations over all these years that i was in Kosmic Fusion by sharing QVSWPP with me 24 by 7 that had weaved a unique journey for me. Self-realization was in it’s final culmination in this prolific retreat that the more one operates as the akarmi and stays in the state of stithi pragnya, the Grace that we had received from Sree Maa Shri Ji would touch others too via us in non-doing. Sree Maa Shri Ji’s training ground was profound where you don’t judge others out of the mask of the ego or practice fake niceness but truly practice being nice from the state of akarmi, the outcome of which is Grace touching even the densest of beings in non-action via QVSWPP__/\o___/\o__/\o_ What ever Sree Maa taught, Sree Maa and Shri Ji displayed it to me by practicing it themselves. ‘Practice what you preach’ was followed to the T and that won the highest regard in my eyes for Sree Maa Shri Ji🙏🙇

Sree Maa Shri Ji introduced us to more Sanatana Dharma concepts like adi, anadi, chit, achit, told us about ‘deh daman’ to tackle the karmi (doer) and any residual karmic energies in the subtle bodies. We listened to and sang devotional songs like Moola mantra, Achyutam keshavam, Gurur Brahma Gurur Vishnu. All songs resonated very well, especially the Moola mantra which i hadn’t heard before.

Moola mantra:  https://youtu.be/T4CLazqxslc

Om Sat Chit Ananda Parabrahma
Purshottama Paramatma
Shri Bhagvathi Sameth
Shri Bhagvathe namah

Hari Om Tat Sat

Sree Maa Shri Ji also introduced us to a new greeting ‘Hari OM BrAhmn’ and had explained the meaning of it. i don’t remember the meaning but was very happy to greet fellow FiTs and 5D++ Pulsars as Hari OM BrAhmn. It was a reminder for me to see the potential of the same Absolute present in the other that i saw in Sree Maa Shri Ji whom i had accepted as my Guru __/\o___/\o___/\o_

To welcome the akarmi deh, we all did a beautiful chit/achit exercise on the final day. We first bowed down and touched our own feet to acknowledge the karmi deh (doer self) that “i notice you but please don’t be a hindrance anymore”, then touched our feet to honour the akarmi deh (non-doer) that “i trust you and honour you and in you resides the All-Knowing, All-pervading, unmanifested aspect of the Absolute and you now lead the way” and finally touched feet of each other, the other selves, the Brahmns by saying Hari OM Brahmn that “i don’t see the personality in you anymore but honour your akarmi just like i honour mine”_/\_

Sree Maa Shri Ji did not leave any stone unturned and used unique exercises from Sanatana Dharma to help all of us move into the akarmi and bond _/\_

Main Apki atyant AbhAri hoon aur sada rahoongi Sree Maa Shri Ji🙏🙇

Akarmi deh, Samdarshi

The new me that hadn’t settled in Transcendence finally emerged in the Akarmi deh initiation😍This initiation was the culmination of what i had been experiencing since the start of 2015. My old self completely took a back seat and Niranjana, the akarmi fully took birth with the Akarmi deh initiation.  This was a colossal gift from Sree Maa Shri Ji where effortlessly the akarmi came forward. Had an inner knowingness that what required consistent awareness and effort earlier was now going to be the way of life.

After the initiation, i felt revived and fully ready to accept the new name that i had given consent for before the Retreat. Sree Maa had written down all the names on the board and we all tried guessing our own names. i related with quite a few surprisingly and loved my new name chosen by Sree Maa. Niranjana means pure and untainted, without any false hood🙏 All the names were attributes of the non-doer. Every time we took each others’ akarmi names, we were reminding ourselves of the unchanging attributes of the akarmi. For instance, Archita means one who has surrendered to God. Every time i called her by that name, i was reminding myself that the akarmi is always surrendered to God. Every time i called Mala, it reminded that all akarmis are connected with one another with the common string Sree Maa Shri Ji and together we all resembled a beautiful garland spreading the fragrance of love, the QVSWPP. How absolutely beautiful!💖 atyant AbhAr Sree Maa Shri Ji 🙏

Embodying the akarmi was ultimate for me. i felt i had reached the pinnacle of what would have taken me eons to achieve. Sree Maa Shri Ji, being the ultimate embodiment of love and grace, showered yet another blessing of Samdarshi, the cherry on the cake.

Samdarshi loosely means ‘like God’ With this initiation we were given the blessing to not look at the Absolute from the outside but carry IT within us. This was SreeMaaShriJi honoring us. Sree Maa introduced the concept of Nar and Narayan where Nar carries an aspect of Narayan. In practical life, with this beautiful initiation, none of us would receive any mirrors from outside but Sree Maa Shri Ji and fellow FiTs would be our only mirrors. No more lessons would be taught by anyone. Sree Maa Shri Ji would teach the last few remaining lessons of the jivatma (incarnational soul) gently and with love🙏🙏🙏 atyant AbhAr Sree Maa Shri Ji for such ultimate Grace.

As i look back and reflect, one of my biggest mistakes and contribution towards the failure of FiT programme, enabling the narcissists and victimizing Sree Maa Shri Ji was the faulty application and understanding of the Samdarshi initiation. Will write about my reflections on this in detail soon.