Akarmi v/s Antahkaran

i felt elated after the prolific May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat and i was finding it difficult hiding the joy i was feeling from within. Listening to devotional songs took me in a different zone of bliss altogether which had never happened before. Earlier, i listened to bhajans at loud volume to cut out mental noise and to allow the vibration of the chant bring energetic shifts. For the first time, i experienced how people would feel ecstatic by visiting temples in ancient Bharat and singing devotional songs. i could feel it sitting at home or in my hotel room 🙇💕.

i started researching the net for bhajans and sent them to Sree Maa if they were suitable to be circulated amongst the FiTs. Sree Maa selected a few to be circulated that were easy to sing, if not comprehend and left the tough Sanskrit ones out. i was enthralled at how much Sree Maa cared for everyone and truly was an exceptional mentor who had literally given birth to the akarmi in all of us and had been nurturing it like a mother🙏i felt immense gratitude and respect for Sree Maa and Shri Ji and based on all feedbacks everyone had given during and after the Retreat, even Dallia to some extent, i assumed everyone felt the same and experienced similar shifts if not paramount ones that i did. This assumption and blindly believing everyone for what they said costed me and my most dear Sree Maa and Shri Ji dearly in 2016/2017.

Embodying the non-doer fully was really beautiful to which the Kosmic Bhagwad Gita was sheer indulgence. The discourses on Shrimad Bhagwad Geeta didn’t make as much sense as they did after the retreat. The shift was so phenomenal that it marked the cessation of hypnotherapy clients for me. i couldn’t bear to listen to the mental and emotional woes of clients that i knew were just the density of the Sukshm sharir (subtle bodies) and the True Soul/Atma is so pure, totally devoid of the slush of the Antahkaran. i felt i would be a cheat if i continued with the sessions and did not introduce people to the treasure i had found, QVSWPP, the gift of Grace by beloved Sree Maa and Shri Ji_/\_

After a while, 4 antahkarans namely mann (mind), buddhi (intellect), chitt (emotive mind), ahankar (ego) started acting up again. It was shocking to realize that despite the magnanimous gifts and blessings from Sree Maa to embody the akarmi, anatahkaran still worked like a hard core programme that needed constant monitoring and cleansing to avoid dust and slush settling as thoughts and emotions. What was a relief and quite astounding though was that with just a little effort of tuning-in with QVSWPP, akarmi took the reigns back in no time and told it off that “sorry, you are not in control anymore.” i was very aware of the Self witnessing the antahkaran and not get embroiled in its drama.

 

Kosmic Bhagwad Gita

Immediately post the May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat, Kosmic Bhagwad Gita sessions commenced. All FiTs formed an internal what’s app group chat for this purpose and posted our questions there which were collated by me. Reader’s kindly go through the range of questions that FiTs came up with:

Since the discourses covered a range of topics like Akshar, Akshar swaroop, Brahmroop, Paramatma, Parabrahm and many more Sanskrit terms that most FiTs were unfamiliar with, Sree Maa Shri Ji encouraged all of us to explore Shrimad Bhagwad Gita (Bhagwan Shree Krishna’s Teachings to Arjun) as those were going to be the base of all future Teachings and discourses by Sree Maa.

All FiTs looked forward to the Q and A with Sree Maa and i shared the audio recordings of these sessions with all FiTs. Dallia has sat with me in Sree Maa Shri Ji’s Te Atatu house during some of these Kosmic Bhagwad Gita sessions and Jeeya for some sessions. Sree Maa always had at least 2 FiTs and never encouraged one-on-one sessions to completely not give any kind of fodder to the ego to feel special. Such is the kind of care extended by our beloved Guru who knows how the doer can subtly creep back in and has taken full responsibility of nurturing the Akarmi deh 🙏

Nandini had already been listening to Bhagwad Gita discourses by BK Usha and Sree Maa asked her to share the links with everyone. Since the characters were unknown to most FiTs, Sree Maa was most gracious to research and recommend links of You Tube videos on synopsis of characters of Mahabharata with English subtitles that would be easy to follow by FiTs hailing from different countries and cultures. We all did our own research from the comforts of our own homes🙏😇

Shrimad Bhagavad Gita- Drama (7 hours)

Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50UvBKzWpD4
Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1oXR-QpIr0
Part 3: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6o8hjb__srY


BK Usha’s explanation on the secrets of Bhagavad Gita (in English) – (9 Hours)

Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A57RWl7L1ak
Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0kfk7s1sQjI
Part 3: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bNmH0JrNm1I
Part 4: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1a2rFF6ZS6I
Part 5: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ou_VfaU-RTE
Part 6: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LqxSWkUdTrk