i had already decided not to practice hypnotherapy anymore and unnecessarily activate chitt and manas, my own or of clients but the nature (swabhav) of my doer has always been to keep learning new things. i had participated in a few family constellations workshops in 2013/14, had found them very interesting which gave a different dimension to healing and so decided to study the modality when i came to know in June 2015 that a Family Constellations training workshop (3 levels spread over a couple of months) was being organised in Mumbai. The first module was within 25 days. i did not have leave on the requisite days and my flying schedule had already been released, so my only option was to swap flights and travel to Mumbai on days off. i must have sent out at least 200 swaps and messaged colleagues to kindly accept the swap but all got rejected. 3 days before the commencement of the workshop, the last swap got rejected and there was no way i could have made it for the training. i finally surrendered and fully accepted that this was not manifesting. There was no disappointment or unpleasant feelings, just an acceptance that QVSWPP, Sree Maa Shri Ji know what’s best for me, an understanding and knowingness that had come from over 4 years of experience.
2 days later, i woke up to a message from a colleague saying that she had seen my advertisement for the days off that i wanted and was happy to swap but hadn’t checked if the swap was valid. i had only half an hour to check if the swap was valid and for my colleague to accept as the legality for rostering system is that all swaps will expire 24 hours before flight departure time. Unbelievably, the swap was valid and within the next couple of hours, i found myself on a flight to Mumbai to attend the Family and Systemic Constellation training.
i wondered how everything had manifested and what was my learning out of it. i had tried everything possible to get days off, but nothing manifested. i had embodied the akarmi and didn’t have any expectation of the result but what surprised me was that i did not experience even a twinge of disappointment or complaint in my thoughts and inner dialogue. This was new and 2 days later everything had fallen into place. Amazing😍. This state was somewhat similar to the state of surrender i had experienced in Nov 2011 where i had uttered a prayer to Sri Sri asking him to send into my life that’s best for me but this time, i did not even utter a prayer to Sree Maa. i was in total acceptance. For the first time i had an experience of true surrender where i didn’t ask for anything even in the form of a prayer and operated from utmost Trust naturally🙏🙇
Little was i aware at the time that the course content of May-June 2016 Taupo Retreat would revolve around Total Surrender (sampoorna samarpan) of which i had experienced a very small taster🙏🙇